It's sinking in..

and I'm getting that sinking feeling..
My training is done, my house is clean, and I have little left to keep me distracted from the fact that I'm leaving everything I know in 3 days. I know that once I get there and get settled in, I'll forget that I was even anxious about it, but right now I just can't shake this funk. I don't know if other people deal with this, but times like this, when I leave the people and things and tasks that I've grown accustomed to,  I feel so insecure. It's a healthy experience for sure; It forces me to find my identity in myself and in the God who made and loves me. When I'm thrown into a new environment, I'm no longer an expert. I have to start over building relationships, earning respect, and learning a new job. I don't like being a nobody, and that's where you always have to start from.
On a brighter note, I am deeply excited about doing what I joined the Army to do. When something big is happening, I want to be a part of it. Our country has been at war for 10 years now, and I finally get to go see what it looks like, I get to be part of history. I get to take care of soldiers that are risking their lives everyday for justice and for our freedom. What an honor. The biggest challenge I'm anticipating is taking care of EPW's (enemy prisoner of war)- I will be taking care of a lot of them. I will nurse the guy that blew up 5 of our guys and show him that he is still human to me, and that I still care about his needs. It will be a challenge, not doubt, but I think will be a great opportunity to practice what Jesus teaches us:
You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. Mat 5:43-44
I'm sure there's a lot of wisdom behind that.