I haven't feel the need to write in awhile... but today I must get this off my chest:
1. Please don't be friends with me with an ulterior motive of "saving" or changing me. When your true intention for spending time with me surfaces, it takes the authenticity of our relationship away. Just like me, love me, appreciate me for the person I am. Spend time with me because you enjoy my company. I'm not a project or brownie points for Jesus, I'm a person.... and a person worth getting to know and loving.
2. Does one choose to be gay? The ultimate argument. First of all, why are straight people having this debate? How about asking someone who is actually gay: did you chose to be gay?
NO.
Why on earth would I chose to risk losing the "Kingdom of Heaven"...
Loosing the support and relationship I had with my grandmother...
Loosing my best friend..
Being rejected by the Church, a group of people I considered family..
Being asked to not touch the children (this memory still brings tears to my eyes)...
Putting my job in the military at risk...
Losing credibility with those I led...
Being treated like an exhibit, to be gawked at, starred at with severe judgement, even disgust.
I did not choose to be gay, but chose to be true to myself. I let the heart in my chest free to love who it was naturally drawn to.
God made me, you can take it up with Him.
